Hooray!!! I am so happy to share with all of you that I am pregnant with our second child of whom is due in January 2017!
I am sharing this wonderful news with all of you early in my pregnancy (I am currently 6 weeks pregnant) because this is my health and fitness journey. This is a part of my life that I want to continue documenting and something that I can look back to or something someone can use as a reference, relate to, give a good a laugh or smile, etc. 🙂
I intend on remaining active throughout my pregnancy and have already talked to my doctor about what workouts are safe for baby and I for my first trimester. I plan on continuing asking questions and seeing what is safe throughout my pregnancy so I can remain safely active!
Let me tell you how I found out…
My husband and I have been trying for baby #2, I was supposed to get my period on Thursday, May 12th but it didn’t come so I tested the next morning and it came out negative. Needless to say, I was bummed and sulked all weekend because I wanted to surprise my hubby when he came home from his surgery on Friday afternoon with a room full of pink and blue balloons.Over the weekend, I did not feel right and I still had no period. After working on Sunday evening, I decided to stop at Target to get a new box of tests because I used the last one on Friday. I also purchased a package of pads because this could either way. My plan was to test first thing Monday morning and if it was positive, I’d try to surprise my hubby again in a different way.
On Monday morning, I woke up and quietly took the test and it immediately flashed pregnant! I was so excited but had to keep it a secret so I could fulfill my surprise goal. I went to go get my hair done which I was super excited about. Also, an ombre is totally safe because to achieve the look it requires foils and the color/bleach is not applied at the root. Plus, my salon is ventilated very well. Can you tell that I did my research? Anyways; after my hair appointment, I went to this cute little shop that’s about a block or two away from my salon to get a stuffed animal bunny. When I was pregnant with my daughter, the very first thing that I bought her was “Goodnight Bear” which is a stuffed bear that she sleeps with at night. So I wanted to buy baby #2 a bunny because he or she will be born in the winter and will be a snow bunny.
On my way home, I was so excited and couldn’t wait to surprise my hubby. I called him and asked if he could come to the front of the house since he said they were outside playing to look at something so all would go smoothly. He did come to the front but my mom and daughter came too. I wanted to tell my hubby alone so I told him to get his stuff so we could go to a local pasta shop together. It was taking him a bit to get ready (He can’t use his right hand at all because of surgery and I forgot this in that moment.) so I told my mom that I was going to see if my hubby needed help and ran inside after sneaking the bag into the house. I went in our bedroom and told my hubby that I got him something. I handed him the bag and he read the note I wrote on the bag with the bunny inside. He was overwhelmed with joy and I started to cry happy tears because we have been waiting for this moment for quite awhile!
Let me share trying for baby #2 journey with you…
I am going to completely honest with you and say that trying to expand our family of three to a family of four was absolutely NOT easy whatsoever. It took 8 months of trying to finally get our second little blessing.
Many times, I contemplated whether or not to share this very personal struggle with all of you. But, it just felt too hard to discuss. It’s hard to talk about when what you want so badly that you know you are capable of doing doesn’t happen the way you imagine it to be. Instead, you begin to doubt yourself and punish yourself on top of being punished by nature monthly with menstraul cramping, bleeding, and all the torture that a period brings to a woman. It literally felt like punishment for being unsuccessful and I punished myself emotionally more than I would like to admit.
I know that I cannot be alone when saying that becoming pregnant is easy. I thought it would be a piece of cake like when I became pregnant with my daughter within 3 months of trying. This time it took 8 long months of trying. I almost was about to give up because it is stressful across all boards. It certainly tests your inner strength, marriage, and pretty much your entire self as a person.
I understand that I am very blessed to be able to have my own children as many are not able to. If I learned one thing from this difficult of having a second child, it is to be respectful of those that may be trying to have children of their own. They may be just trying, trying for 8 months, a year, or even 5 years and I know from personal experience being asked about having children is a sensitive topic. It’s like ripping open a scab that’s trying to heal. We need to be more mindful and sensitive to those newly married couples, long term relationships, or anyone else that is an easy subject to being asked about when or if they are having children because you don’t know how long they may have been trying.
I am very fortunate and talked to a very small group of women that either went through the same hardships or are currently going through this hardship. We connected from our struggles and it made it a little less painful knowing that I was and am not alone. I honestly don’t know I would have managed to go this entire 8 months without their love and support.
From these past 8 months, I’ve learned to count your blessings and regardless of how bad things may get or feel, try to remain positive because something good will eventually happen.